alone.

This really isnt as depressing as it sounds. I mean i am feeling sort of alone, but like im not sad about it because I think it may be a figure of imagination.. (is that the right term?) So they say people with eating disorders, or at least anorexia are hypersensitive to others emotions.  Like you may be feeling totally fine but just tired, but i would tend to assume that its personal. you must be mad at me. you must be annoyed with me. I must have done something. or if i didnt, then at least, the VERY least you are upset about something that you dont want to talk about.  So like i have been told about this characteristic of anorexics in therapy, and been told i possess this.  Yet i mean its like fighting an oger to go against my instincts. my instincts are the oger. to go against my instincts is so hard. its like all the information im getting from the other person  is telling me that they are upset or mad or annoyed and they just dont want me to know.  And i can kinda tell when im doing this. but like its like my wise mind is telling me all the signs are there that this person is mad at you, wants you to go away, is annoyed with you, so i should just leave them alone.  I feel like the person reading this is prob getting really confused, sorry, i am just not so clear on it all myself so its hard to talk about.  I guess to sum up the idea: I tend to read into people's affect. If it is minutely not cheerful i assume they are mad or upset or annoyed or something negative.  I read into their emotions too deeply.
   And like so this tends to drive people away, but how do i know when i am totally overreacting? or just merely reacting to an obvious affect? i really dont know. i mean i can ask them i know. but how the heck am i supposed know if they are telling me the truth? like if i were mad and annoyed idk if i would be honest? ughhhh i just feel so confused.  And the problem is that when i feel like somebody is annoyed or mad at me i tend just back off. give them the cold shoulder..give them space. i guess its just i dont want to be where i am not wanted..ya know? but it sucks. because sometimes these are my closest friends i do this with and il end up losing them over soemthing that i am being stupid about.