I'm Fine. Liar.

(Written previously) One of the biggest lies and heaviest words that i ever tell when im in my ed mindset, is that I’m Fine.  I mean i dont know about anybody else, but usually when im upset i say  im fine.  I feel like if  i have to tell you im upset and you cant tell on your own, then obviously you dont know me very well or dont care enough to think about the signs im showing you.  Ya ya, i know that im expecting everyone to be able to read my mind, but im sorry, all your gona get is fine.  

just a message to people who have a loved one suffering or even just anybody, most likely, if you ask somebody how they are and they say, I’m fine, it means they are NOT. Maybe you are just accepting it because you want to believe yourself, but with every acceptance of my response “im fine,” I lose a little bit of confidence in the way i feel.  I think maybe its not valid to be upset, or else they would know.  

I mean, lets face it, even if the person you care about really is “fine,” is fine good enough? wouldnt you like them to be good? so stop accepting this cookie-cutter response and take the time to listen and maybe push them a little, because often i want to be heard, i just am afraid to ask somebody to listen.